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Well… After last months post, you’d assume this one would be nothing but bragging about my goal smashing month of success! Well… you’re wrong. This month did not go according to plan in any way, shape or form. I am not content with the way this month played out in way, shape or form. Where to even begin with what went wrong?
Finished the year with a fractured eye socket and I couldn’t be happier! I finally feel like I’m in a place where I belong. Muay Thai people get me. Developers get me. My friends get me. I don’t feel like I need to worry about what anyone else thinks. I don’t feel like I need to try to impress anyone. And I don’t ever feel like I need to try and be someone I’m not.
Every time I reach a goal and achieve or think that I’ve achieved a reasonable feat, I feel a sense of emptiness. An empty void where I no longer need to continue working towards that specific goal and in turn winding up convincing myself that getting to that point of achievement was an easy task.
As excited as I was to be starting off on a new adventure, nothing could have prepared me for how draining it really it is.
Last week everything maybe got to be a little too full on and I didn’t get a chance then to post this article. It’s quite funny to read back over now, just after a few days, because to be honest, following such a dominant win and going into work with a new project waiting for me, I’ve completely changed my point of view.